Discernment and Confusion

(New Jersey)

Please pray that God will help me discern my calling. I am married but somewhat tormented by thoughts that my marriage will make it more difficult for me to stay faithful to God and serve Jesus. I am not sure if I am even thinking clearly. I have put off discerning my calling for many years, almost 20. I have a desire to serve but can't seem to figure out where I am called, and I am struggling with the willingness to keep trying. Please pray that God will reveal His will to me, and that I'll be able to understand, accept and respond faithfully. The thought of dying without accomplishing what God asked me to is really horrible to me, but I'm not sure what He wants for me. Thank you & God Bless