I don't wanna just get past, my horriable days,i need them to get better,man iv never felt do desprite

My life is in the balance, i'm terafide ,because i have never felt more like bailing out than i have lately.

its like i have every singal thing going wrong in my life at the same time. I am broke, in body mind and sprit, there is no doubt in my mind that jesus, can save me from certin death, but for reasons unknown to me he has chose not to. :(

i'm always so depressed , and i pray to god and will feel peace at that, moment but no long term change.

I have 0 money, 0 friends, and no social life, and anytime. somthing goood dos happen , i always mess it up, with all my ankzitys, and insurcuritys's .

Also my dreams, in life mock me, it's litterly killing me inside, to feel so powerless , to act. i cant see any opritunity in my life its just not there, help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh god please do this to me im to week :(