I Need to Submit Myself to God Completely and Turn Away from Sin

I have always been struggling against myself to obey God and to live according to His will. I can't, I always fail. I always submit myself to sin, especially of the flesh. I am now very desperate and so ashamed of myself before God the Father and Lord Jesus Christ. I can't even pray because I am so ashamed of myself. I am worried that God will be forgiving me again but in the end I will fall into the same habit of sinning.

I want to reform my spiritual life. I love Jesus, I love God the Father and I love Mama Mary. But I am in pain that I am continously sinning against them, against my neighbor and against myself.

I need help to give me strength to go against my sinful nature and become more resolved to live my life in the light of God's liberating love. I don't want to sin anymore but I can't, sometimes I just want to cry because I can't get back to God.

Please pray for me!

Edmon G.