Jesus I Trust In You
When I was young, I was always wondering who is God. I used to attend mass and seeing all the images of Christ and saints. At first I thought that it was enough for my salvation. I seldom went to confession. I was believing that after attending mass all sins were forgiven.
At the same time I was attending in a charismatic movement at our church but after that we used to drink and talked gossips and many other sins. Somehow it taught me that sin could be a way of life that God can always forgive. There came a time that I reflected for a moment. Is this what really God wants from me? I saw some were praying rosary and thought that was just a waste of time.
I believed that I can talk directly to God. My mother and I always had a fight. She did not want me to follow the footsteps of my father. I consulted a fortune teller. I kept in mind that it might be my destiny so why shall I deny myself just be who you are. On the other hand I was arguing with myself that in God there is nothing impossible. He can change everything.
Little by little I decided to turn away from drinking. I decided to take care of myself for the sake of my family. During that time I already graduated in college but my brother has not yet graduated. A friend of mine who was a devotee of our Blessed Mother told me to apply in a private Catholic School under the guidance of St.Philomena.
I heard that to St.Philomena nothing is refused. I heard many shocking revelations from attending mass in a monastery empowered by Our Lady of Guadalupe. I discovered that I offended God so much. I begged for His mercy. I prayed the rosary. I asked for the guidance of Our Holy Mother.
One time I had a dream. This happened when I stared the image of
Divine Mercy before I sleep. There was a huge rock striking the Earth. I went to Church to ask for salvation. Outside the church there was a great tribulation. I went to a high mountain. All of a sudden Jesus appeared in the sky riding on a horse like the Christ the King. I followed him as He travels in the air. He brought me to a desert. He told me to put down my hands on water. Little fishes freely went on to my hands. I lifted up my hands and put the fishes in a tray.
Until now I am still wondering for its meaning. I know it has something to do with my mission. I started to evangelize my friends and the students whom I taught to. There was also a miracle happened to me.
I dreamt that Pope Benedict XVI resigned from his papal office. There would have a pope in place of him - he is fat that symbolizes power and his skin is in brown complexion meaning to say a pope coming from the other side of the world. Someone whispered on me he was an anti Pope.
Our Lady of Lourdes also appeared. Alas! it happened on February 11 which is in honor of Our Lady of Lourdes. I am now planning to be a cathecist in our community. I am troubled please pray for me.
I can feel that old friends are going to persecute me for my past sins. For the sake of the chosen ones I'll try my best. One thing more about a dream. I also dreamt a great suffering in the Catholic church. Men clothed in white believing to be cardinals were planning to survive the Church. There will stand among them. A child like St. Michael the Archangel appeared in the middle of the discussion. Everybody was shocked even I. The city of the seven hills which is Rome also appeared. I felt that a great war was going to happen. That ends.