Please Help me Pray

by Rochelle M. Gaanan
(Riyadh, Saudi Arabia)

Its been almost 10 years since my stranged husband and I got separated.Our annullment was granted 5 years ago. I have been struggling to keep my son focus to have a better life than what their parents had. But seemingly my 2nd son, lawrence was the one greatly affected by the separation. I failed and intentionally did not tell them the reason why we separated because I thought this will spare them the pain and feeling of hatred. Unknowingly it turn out not with him. He think I was selfish. I separated with his father because I could no longer stand and bear the punches, curses his vices, his womanizing and a lot more. I was hospitalized 2x for the batterry I got from him, the last I almost bleed to death. I thought separation would save my kids from watching me die, and have a better life.But it turned Lawrence a rebel. He had to repeat 1st year high school 3x,smoking,drinking,did try drugs and a lot more. He is living with me now for a year and because I have to support him and prepare for his other sibling future I work abroad. I only able to monitor him through phone and help of his gurdian. I am asking a miracle from God to help me.I want and wish My 4 children be able to finish their schooling and have a better life. It does not matter if my son lawrence hate me,but I pray he finish his schooling. I can no longer take back the family i was not able to give him. I can not be able to give back what I have not been able to bear. I am begging for those who could read this to please help me pray for them...